Dexter You Beast

Just finished catching up on this latest season of Dexter and all I will say is wow. I'm delighted with how they ended things all around and can't wait to see what they come up with next season. First Jimmy Smits, then John Lythgow - I wonder who the next serial killer Dexter looks to for guidance will be....

For PlanB From Jake

I've swung back around to being in a great mood/state of mind. It helps that I have finals this week, survived The 24-Hour Attack of the Cold, had people remind me that I'm a good person and friend (hooray validation!), am mere minutes away from what I can only imagine is a heart-wrenching fulfilling season finale of Dexter, and am drinking a glass of wine listening to one of my very favorite mixtapes ever.

It was made for me by the Supposed-to-be-Best Man, circa 1997 and is a perfect example of the music Jake and I shared a love for, most from when we were kids. Our relationship was fun and passionate and deep and rocky but constant and full of the strongest love I've ever been a part of. Neither of us ever got over the guilt of betraying the Supposed-to-be-Groom - we were doomed from the start, but it is a year I would not give back for anything.

Side A:

1. Suite: Judy Blue Eyes - Crosby, Stills, & Nash (My love for CSN [&Y] is long documented and never wavering. I learned how to harmonize by listening to their songs and warbling along. They're one of maybe three musical acts that have the ability to transport me back to each stage in my life. There has never been a time when I didn't listen to them, and I can't imagine a time when there will be. Stephen Stills wrote this as he was on the verge of breakup with Judy Collins. It's a beautiful song detailing love and its failings. "I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are and you make it hard...change my life, make it right, be my lady.")

2. But Anyway - Blues Traveler (Jake and I saw these guys a couple of times at The Greek Theater, which happens to be my most favorite place to see a concert ever. Great live act. "Some day an answer will find us, quite a long shot, but anyway. I think the past, the past is behind us." Unfortunately, we could never get over our past.)

3. Pride & Joy - Stevie Ray Vaughan (So. Effing. Good. I owe my knowledge and love of SRV to Jake. SRV & Double Trouble Live at Carnegie Hall - get it if you don't have it. "Yeah I love my lady, she's long and lean. You mess with her you'll see a man get mean.")

4. Piece of My Heart - Janis Joplin (What can I say about dear, beautiful Janis that hasn't already been said a thousand times? "You're out on the streets honey looking pretty good, but deep down, deep down inside I guess you know it ain't never been right." So true.)

5. Me & My Bobby McGee - Janis Joplin (Gravelly, soulful, heart out for all to hear. Kris Kristofferwho? Her voice makes me forgive it for spawning so many bad karaoke renditions. "Yeah, and feeling good was easy Lord, when he sang the blues. You know feeling good was good enough for me, mhm, good enough for me and my Bobby McGee.")

6. Like a Rolling Stone - Bob Dylan (I also owe my appreciation and love for Bob Dylan to Jake. He exposed me to the rare tracks, the lesser known songs that I listen to over and over again. "But you'd better lift your diamond ring, you'd better pawn it babe...go to him now, he calls you, you can't refuse. When you got nothing, you got nothing to lose.")

7. Love Minus Zero/No Limit - Bob Dylan (One of the prettiest songs about unconditional love ever written. All love is a risk. "My love she's like some raven at my window with a broken wing.")

8. In My Life - The Beatles ("And these memories lose their meaning, when I think of love as something new." Perfect song for a new love who is insecure about the past ones.)

9. I'm Waiting for the Day - The Beach Boys (Ah, Pet Sounds. A near perfect album. This, Sloop John B, Wouldn't It Be Nice, God Only Knows...sigh. "I kissed your lips and when your face looked sad it made me think about him and that you still loved him so...You didn't think that I could sit around and let him take you.")

10. I'll Be There - Clarence Brown (Phenomenal and gritty and bluesy and fun. Worth scrolling down and hearing the clip. With songs like this, how could I say no? "Ain't no chain strong enough to hold me, ain't no breeze big enough to slow me, I'll be there if you ever want me by your side.")

Side B:

1. Sugaree - Jerry Garcia (Jake, in addition to many other things, was very much a Dead Head and succeeded in turning me into one to the point where I wouldn't travel around seeing them, but I listen to them and hear beauty and joy and pure love of music and am happy. "One last voice is calling you and I guess it's time you go. Just one thing I ask of you, just one thing for me. Please forget you knew my name, my darling sugaree.")

2. I Second That Emotion - Jerry Garcia (I love me the Smokey Robinson and usually don't like covers, but c'mon. Jerry and Bob? Gotta give it to 'em, they make it their own. "Maybe you think that love was made for fools, so it makes you wise to break the rules.")

3. How Sweet It Is - Jerry Garcia (The video quality makes it look like it's from about 1957...who doesn't want a love like this one? "I open my eyes at night, wondering where would I be without you in my life. Everything was such a bore. All the things I've done seems I've done 'em before. But you brightened up all of my days, with your love so sweet in so many ways.")

4. Eyes of the World - Grateful Dead (Definitely one of the goofier, less favorite of mine Grateful Dead songs. I most likely fastfowarded to the end 9 out of 10 times I listened to this tape, but sweet and hey, Bruce Hornsby! "Wake now, discover that you are the song that the morning brings, but the heart has it's seasons, it's evenings and songs of it's own.")

Deadwood

Yet another unique, high quality show cut short before its time. Excellent writing (in iambic pentameter with even more cocksuckers thrown in than this place), superb acting, and episodic descriptions such as: "A dandy arrives by stage coach and immediately begins exploring how to bring culture to the camp." A dandy you say? In that case, yes, I will pour myself a glass of wine and watch you again.

Who Sent The Memo?

To all those I've somehow wronged over the years who are collectively all of a sudden bringing it all back up: I'm sorry. I realize I was not the best person at all times. I could probably waste time thinking about your faults but I won't. It's the past. We've hopefully learned from our mistakes and made changes. I know I have. Can we agree on a Christmas Miracle, move on and stop beating me up-I've done it enough on my own. Thanks.

For Half-Pint: Songs Sean Could Never Sing

My freshman year of college (1990-91) I met a boy who re-taught me how to snow ski. My friend Cheri invited me on a ski trip and even though I hadn't been skiing in years, I said yes because it sounded fun and why not, I was going to be home for Winter Break anyway. So we drove up to Big Bear and on the trip up, I ended up chatting with this guy Frank (trust, it took some work to pull that name out of the ole memory bank) who told me I looked like Half-Pint on Little House on the Prairie. Smooth. I wish I could say that it was the first time I'd heard this, but no. In "retaliation" I pulled out the only '70s celebrity I could think of who he resembled and came up with Shaun Cassidy...hence the title of the tape (yes, he misspelled Shaun). We ended up dating for about a month or two after the ski trip - complicated by me being in Santa Barbara and him in Pomona. He was a nice enough guy I suppose, but there was just something off about him that I could never put my finger on...ultimately I think he was just way too into me too fast, which always freaks me out. Or maybe it was his decision to put Kenny G on a mix tape.

Side 1:

1. Metallica - Nothing Else Matters (I think anyone my age will always love the Black Album. Despite opening up "metal" to the masses, it's a really quality album. "Open mind for a different view, and nothing else matters.")

2. Oingo Boingo - We Close Our Eyes (It always makes me sad when people say they don't know who Oingo Boingo is - they were such a huge part of my formative years, I just assume everyone knows them [same with Social Distortion]. Here's another clip from a concert I attended. Goodness I miss seeing them live. Their shows were some of the first I went to on my own and set the standard for what I consider to be a good live performance. It's a high bar. "And if you think I'm worth it. And if you think it's not too late, we might start falling, if we don't try too hard, we might start falling in love.")

3. Queensryche - Silent Lucidity (A beautiful ballad by a band known for quite the opposite, despite the lead singer's silly pronunciation. "The walls you built within come tumbling down and a new world will begin.")

4. Bad Company - If You Needed Somebody (Up to this point, we only knew Bad Company from their amazing 10 From 6 album [side note: the only 8 track I have ever had in my possession is Bad Company-Run With the Pack. Why I kept it is a mystery, I never had an 8 track player of my own.]. This song, perfect 1991 cheese, is one I always belt out when I hear it. I chose this clip to illustrate how God awful the fashion was at the time. I'm not sure how any of us got dates. "If I could hold you tonight, it would last me forever. But the time's never right, when will we be together?")

5. Robert Plant - Ship of Fools (This song always reminds me of the morning radio show on KROQ pre-Kevin & Bean. If I remember correctly, it was Richard Blade, the Poorman [I once saw the Poorman during an early morning surf adventure - his wetsuit had a big hole on his right buttcheek] and a couple other people and it was ridiculously fun. "I built this ship it is my making, and furthermore my self control I can't rely on anymore. I know why.")

6. The Church - Under the Milky Way (Love this song. This is one of the cassettes I purchased in South Korea and still have. "Wish I knew what you were looking for, might have known what you would find.")

7. Eric Johnson - 40 Mile Town (I would never, ever be able to recall this song if it weren't for this tape. Hearing it again, I remember it clearly and can sing it all, but again, I would never have remembered it on my own. "Seems to me we really need to feel love more. Oh an ordinary smile opens up the door. Sometimes all I want to do is dream away, and wake up in some forty mile town.")

8. Extreme - Hole Hearted (Oh sweet Jesus, that's right. Extreme had two hit songs. "If I'm not blind why can't I see, that a circle can't fit where a square should be?")

9. Dire Straits - So Far Away ("I'm tired of being in love and being all alone when you're so far away from me." Long distance was tough, especially since I didn't have a car at the time. Poor Frank.)

Side 2:

1. The Eagles - The Long Run (I have about a three song limit for The Eagles, but man I love me those three songs and I'd go see them live in a second. "Oh I did some damage, I know it's true. Didn't know I was so lonely 'til I found you.")

2. Kenny G - Going Home (Really? I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt and say this was put on merely for the title.)

3. Chris Isaak - Wicked Game (Probably my least favorite Chris Isaak song, but since I love them all, it's still a good one. "I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you. And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you.")

4. U2 - 40 (I'm guessing he put this on because of 1. My love for U2 and 2. I was at a Christian college. For those few who don't know, this is based on the 40th Psalm. I love this song - it always gives me chills, remembering the passion with which Bono sang it live and the passion the crowd gave back with their singing. "I waited patiently for the Lord. He inclined and heard my cry. He brought me up out of the pit. Out of the miry clay.")

5. Foreigner - Waiting for a Girl Like You (This band, for me, is right up there with REO Speedwagon. I unabashedly love them and sing along whenever a song of theirs is on. "Maybe I'm wrong. Will you tell me if I'm coming on too strong." Yes. Yes you were Frank.)

6. Led Zeppelin - Fool in the Rain ("Now I will stand in the rain on the corner. Watch the people go shuffling downtown. Another 10 minutes no longer and then I'm turnin around round.")

7. Extreme - More Than Words (Great harmonies, stirring, quiet, cheesy and delicious. "Saying I love you is not the words I want to hear from you." Amen.)

8. The Cars - Drive (So good it hurts. "Who's gonna tell you things, aren't so great?")

Creepy?

I just realized that two of my cousins (brothers) are both dating women with the same name as their youngest sister. One maybe, but both? Maybe it's because I have a fairly unique name (really, how many PlanBs do you know?) or maybe it's just plain creepy. I mean, c'mon, think about sex. Could you really say intimate romantic things to the same name as a sibling? Am I alone in being weirded out by this?

90210 Observations

I didn't watch 90210 when I was in high school and really only watched sporadically after that, yet somehow I know almost all the storylines and get sucked into watching it whenever an old ep is on...like now. In my defense, they're ridiculously entertaining and it was the High School graduation ep. Things I've noticed:

1. Everyone had really dark eyebrows.

2. I owned most of the clothes they wore. And am embarrassed.

3. Scrunchies must never, ever exist again.

4. In all the mocking of mom jeans it seems to be lost that at one time they were quite fashionable. Especially when worn with a bodysuit and a matching scrunchie.

5. Gabrielle Carteris was like a decade older than the people who were a decade too old to be playing high schoolers. She actually looked older than some of the teachers.

6. I really miss living at the beach.

The OC is on now, which means I will spend another hour watching a show about where I grew up. Probably not wise when I'm homesick, sick, and it's freezing and crappy outside.

Cursed

This is a tape I made while attending Fullerton College in 1993. There are times when you just have to laugh at your younger self. I'm sure I put in way too much time thinking about the lyrics to make the songs mean something in some way. In reality, it's a tape with a bunch of good songs about heartache, unrequited love, and people done wrong.

Side A: Cursed Female

1. Cursed Female - Porno For Pyros ("Cursed to be born, beautiful, young and female. There's none that suffers more." Oh the humanity.)

2. Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses - U2 (This is one of my favorite U2 songs that I always need to be reminded of..."Well you lied to me because I asked you to. Baby, can we still be friends? Hey hey, sha la la...the doors you open, I just can't close.")

3. Why Can't I Fall In Love - Ivan Neville (From Pump Up The Volume. Great song from a great movie. Not sure why Ivan Neville never made it big - his voice is outstanding, bluesy, full of emotion. "It's time to get real and change where I'm at, but the same old questions keep following me back.")

4. Eclipse - Pink Floyd (To be fair, this was around the time the big hubbub about playing Dark Side of the Moon with Wizard of Oz was reaching the pinnacle of newness. Yes, we did it. Yes, it was freaky. Yes I was the only one in the room not high as a kite. "All that you love and all that you hate...and everything under the sun is in tune, but the sun is eclipsed by the moon.")

5. Jump in the River - Sinead O'Connor (This album continues to be one I listen to and identify with - full of stirring, beautiful melodies and haunted lyrics, most notably here. "The phone calls always left me unsure. They never said things on their own accord...there's been days like this before you know and I liked it all.")

6. Again - Janet Jackson (Say what you will about the early 1990's, but there was some damn good female singers cranking out good music, even if it was melodramatic at times. "A wounded heart you gave, my soul you took away. Good intentions you had many, I know you did.")

7. Sound of Silence - Simon & Garfunkel (A lesson in blindly following and the dangers it holds. "But my words like silent raindrops fell and echoed in the wells of silence.")

8. Time - Blind Melon (A performance about a month before Shannon's death by o/d. Yet another talent cut short by drugs. Bleh. "And all the worries you build up inside your soul, the ones that make your world stand still, mean you can feel that it's time to go.")

9. Sunless Saturday - Fishbone (This is one of those bands where if you mention them to me with no prompting, my respect for you will raise a couple notches. "Perhaps the charcoal grey and brown around me is just the mirror image of a tainted soul.")

10. Tryin to Throw Your Arms Around the World - U2 ("How far you gonna go, before you lose your way back home.")

Side B: Cursed Male

1. Cursed Male - Porno For Pyros (No video for this one, most likely due to no reason t have scantily clad women dancing about. "All the guys that really have all the money are too old to have a good time with it." Yes. Such a curse.)

2. So What'cha Want - Beastie Boys ("I'm as cool as cucumber in a bowl of hot sauce." Rhyming doesn't get much better than that.)

3. Maggie Mae - Rod Stewart ("You stole my soul and that's a pain I can do without.")

4. I Just Died in Your Arms - Cutting Crew (No self-respecting female my age doesn't love this song. It'd be akin to hating Peter Cetera. You just don't do it. "Is there any just cause for feeling like this? On the surface I'm a name on a list.")

5. Hey, Hey, What Can I Do - Led Zeppelin ("I need to tell her she's the only one I really love." The woman in the song does not sound deserving of this. At all.)

6. She Talks to Angels - Black Crowes (Amazing song. I can't say enough about it. "She gives a smile when the pain comes. Pain gonna make everything alright.")

7. Dyslexic Heart - Paul Westerberg (This song makes me smile. Every time. "Slip me a napkin and now that you start, is this your name or a doctor's eye chart?...Do I date you, do I hate you? I got a dyslexic heart.")

8. Nothing Else Matters - Metallica ("I never opened myself this way. Life is ours, we live it our way. All these words I don't just say, and nothing else matters.")

9. Everyday I Write the Book - Elvis Costello ("When your dreamboat turns out to be a footnote, I'm the man with a mission in two or three editions." I once dated a guy just because he looked like Elvis Costello. It didn't last long, he couldn't sing.)

10. Fool in the Rain - Led Zeppelin (Pearl Jam backing up Robert Plant. Sigh. "And you thought it was only in movies, as you wish all your dreams would come true. It ain't the first time believe me baby, I'm standing here feeling blue.")

"Food Inc." Or, Why I'll Never Eat Again

I wear leather. I take little issue with others eating meat in front of me and have no qualms preparing it for people. I was never, nor am I currently, a moral vegetarian-it came about mostly because eating meat on a bone really just grosses me out. I've read The Omnivore's Dilemma, am currently reading Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer. I eat a pretty healthy diet which is as organic as it wisely and economically can be, was pescetarian for most of my 20's and have about a 75% (often higher) vegetarian diet currently, don't eat red meat unless my body screams for it which is about 4 times a year or tasting is required by what I'm producing for class or work. And now? Now I'm watching Food Inc. again, because obviously some part of me is telling me it isn't enough. The first time I watched it, I cried, shuddered, dry heaved. I'm certain I once again will have to shut my eyes in some scenes.

I'm disturbed by the term "growing chickens."

I'm horrified by the drugs pumped into the animals we eat.

I'm ashamed by the part of me that will most likely rationalize away what I know so that I can continue to eat poultry and fish.

All I can do at this point is continue making healthy, responsible choices and keep gathering as much knowledge as I can. Small changes really can make a difference when they're made by a number of people. The longer I'm in school, the more I lean towards doing something that involves promoting sustainability, organic foods, grass-fed beef, etc. I don't know anyone who has known me well/for a long time would be surprised by this.

Hindsight Really Is 20/20

My friend Jim just called for one of our daily check ins (he's the only person I talk to nearly every day) and after the "how are you?" "I'm well, how are you?"s, completely out of the blue he asked "Hey, did you ever get your dishes back from Mr.P?" I answered that no, I have not heard anything from him since we broke up, despite trying twice to set up a time for the exchange. Granted, my second message may have been a bit snarky, along the lines of "Guess I'll get my dishes back when you learn courtesy" or something to that effect, but still, it's not that difficult to reply to a text people. Even if it's something like "I hate you right now. I'll get your dishes to you later." Anyhoodle, Jim rather angrily suggested we go over and pound on Mr.P's door until I get my stuff. It's been almost an hour and I'm still giggling over his outrage. It's sweet that he's so upset that someone is being a dick to me. I love him for that even if this behavior from Mr.P is completely expected on my part.

I suppose I could be the bigger person and let Mr.P know I have no hard feelings (other than a smidge of anger over a situation I'll describe later by most likely just c&p'ing a conversation I had with KB about it earlier*), that I realized almost immediately we are both better off not dating, since really all we did was have sex or go to movies. I can't recall too many instances of us having actual conversations about things that matter. Any time I'd try, he would joke things off or give ridiculous "solutions" to whatever it was I just wanted to chat or vent about. He's a fun guy, can be very sweet, but he can also be incredibly selfish and clueless. I'm not saying I was perfect, I will never say I've done nothing wrong, but I really put up with stuff I should not have because it was nice to be with someone.

To my above point that I am not perfect, I have a very dear friend whom I've known over 20 years who is going through an incredibly hard time right now. It's really been weighing heavily on me, as I'm one of the few people he can talk with about what he's feeling and I just feel absolutely worthless in helping him. I just needed someone to listen to me. Instead, all Mr.P could do was ask questions about why my friend wasn't doing more and make observations about how easy it is to fix everything that is going wrong, etc. I've not been as angry at someone in a very very long time as I was with him at that moment. I was one minute from getting out of the car, even though we were stuck in traffic in the middle of Thomas Circle.

*me: So I am not a very good person at times.

Katie: lol, did you text a nasty-gram to Mr. P?

me: Did I tell you that two days before we broke up Mr. P was pretty dickish and insensitive when I was trying to talk about my friend being suicidal-ish?

12:00 PM Like to the point I almost got out of his car while we were stuck in traffic.

Katie: You did not tell me that, no.

But that's horrible.

12:01 PM me: Well, one of the major issues I have with him, always have and most likely always will, is that any time there is something discussed that needs a solution, he comes up with ridiculous ideas. Like I was talking abut how my friend hasn't been able to find a job and Mr.P was saying all kinds of dumb things instead of just being "Wow, I'm really sorry that a close friend you've known for over 20 years is having a really hard time."

12:02 PM Anyhoodle.

Mr.P's last two Facebook statuses have been:

Mr.P: Every single person wants tomorrow to be better than today. If we just help each other get there, just a little tiny bit, the world would be closer to perfect each and every day.November 30 at 11:05pm

Which I just ROLLED MY EYES AT

12:03 PM Katie: As well you should have....

me: And then this one, which made me actually flip off my computer screen.

Mr.P: Life is a dream, on a river, and try as we might we never know where it will take us and when the journey will end, but until that day we should all strive to make the most of it, keep our friends and family out of the rapids, and lend a hand and a paddle whenever we can. (My dedication to my friend S, wherever you are).Fri at 12:55am

12:04 PM I mean, it's sad that someone he was friends with died.

But FUCK YOU.

Katie: So he can be compassionate, but only when it's HIS friend??

me: AGREED

Katie: Wow...

12:05 PM me: It's taking everything in me to not write him an email saying "I'm unfriending you. Not because I hate you or am angry at you or wish you ill. I'm unfriending you because the amazingly high levels of hypocrisy you've shown the last week are making me ill."

So, I unfriended him with no contact. I just can't deal with him preaching good to all and loving support when he couldn't muster a minute of it to me a week before. That said, in all honesty, I haven't thought about him much, or missed him at all since the break up, much like the first time we broke up about 6 months ago. That's what makes me the saddest I think. That after being intimate with someone for a year, off and on, there is little to no change in my day to day life now that he's out of it. Sigh.

I'm sure in a month or so, after I've gotten through my dad's birthday (the 28th - the first since he died) and the first anniversary of his death (January 3rd) I'll sit down and write Mr.P an email telling him what I think, where I'm at, maybe including a link for postage so he can just mail me my stuff even though I'm sure he's been within blocks of my house at least a couple times in the last week or so...but for now, I'll continue giggling about the ridiculousness of the situation and be thankful that neither of us were invested enough to be too hurt by the breakup and that we're both hopefully on to things and people better suited for each of us. Or maybe by January I'll just go buy myself new baking dishes.

2010: The Year of ...?

For the last few years, instead of making resolutions I've picked a theme for the coming year and let it set the tone for how I go about my business. It's worked really well for the past four (see below*) and now that we've entered December, it's time to once again whittle down the possibilities for the year to come. I'm leaning towards 2010: The Year of Sloughing Off Dead Weight, but it is quite a mouthful and such a long title seemingly goes against the motivation behind said title.

Suggestions welcome until December 30, 2009.

*Years Past:

2009 - The Year of Making it Happen

2008 - The Year of Dating Appropriately

2007 - The Year of Good Decisions

2006 - The Year of Bold Moves

Lazy Sunday?

I always feel it's a lazy day if I don't have in person interaction with people. But in the 12 hours I've been awake I've gotten so much done that it's hard for me to define today as lazy. Also, there are so many more hours left in the day since I've been up for so long that I suppose interaction is still a possibility. In fact, I think I'm going to put some clothes on and head out into the bright, cool world for a bit. I've been wanting some potato soup for dinner and need to pick up some chives. I also need to go to Best Buy, but I'm going to put that off until tomorrow when all those people I don't like to be around are at work making the store less crowded.

One of the many things I've done so far today was read this article: http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2009/12/01/AR2009120100847.html

I wish I could say I reacted with surprise that someone was running into issues with DC Government over permits. It'll be interesting to see what happens nation-wide with these "new" business ventures since street food/carts are the new trend right now.

Alright - I'm off to start the outside portion of my day, then come back and work out while my dinner simmers.

Be A Good Boy And Put This On

One more before I start my Sunday. This is going to be a good one, I can tell already. I can remember getting ready to this tape, drying my hair, doing my make-up, singing while picking out my outfit which I'm sure involved tight jeans and a half shirt. Oh 1993, how I do not miss you.

I'm not sure how George Michael made it on to this one - seems I felt the need to put all black artists on one tape...

Side A:

1. Shoop - Salt N Pepa (I pretty much only respect people who can sing this song word for word a capella.)

2. People Everyday - Arrested Development (I loved this album when it came out. Still good listening to it 16 years later. "My day was going great and my soul was at ease.")

3. Give It Up Turn It Loose - En Vogue (Another album I was in love with when it came out that I haven't listened to in years. Harmonies hit it out of the park every time. "Don't be down and miserable. You and only you can bring yourself around.")

4. If - Janet Jackson (This was the start of my dancing every weekend phase. This video is also responsible for me flaunting my abs and wearing chokers. I wonder how many parents knew their kids were singing about oral sex.)

5. Baby Got Back - Sir Mix A Lot (Another litmus test for my respect. "She's just so....black.")

6. 7 - Prince (I've long defended my love of this song - I really think it's all about being a fun song to sing along with...as evidenced by this video of the whitest men on Earth.)

7. Somebody's Gettin on My Nerves - Salt N Pepa ("Show 'em what you got.")

8. It Ain't Over 'Til It's Over - Lenny Kravitz (Horns! Strings! Lenny! "And all my doubts and fears kept me wondering if I'd always be in love." Quite possibly the only man who gets an exception to the No Man Jewelry Rule.)

9. Mr. Wendal - Arrested Development ("Here, have a dollar. In fact no brotherman here have two. Two dollars means a snack for me, but it means a big deal to you.")

Side B:

1. Freedom '90 - George Michael (Great video. Great song. I don't want to know people who don't sing with this. "Today the way I play the game is not the same, no way. Think I'm gonna get myself happy.")

2. Whoomp! There It Is - Tag Team ("I'm taking it back to the old school, cuz I'm an old fool who's so cool." Go ahead and dance, I won't judge. I'm too busy singing "Slam dunk it, stick it, flip it and ride that b-double o-t-y oh my.")

3. Paul on 45 - I have no idea what this is...

4. Whatta Man - Salt N Pepa featuring En Vogue ("My man is smooth like Barry and his voice got bass. A body like Arnold with a Denzel face...He always has heavy conversation for the mind which means a lot to me 'cuz good men are hard to find.")

5. That's The Way Love Goes - Janet Jackson (Hello very young Jennifer Lopez.)

6. Dre Day - Dr. Dre ("You trying to check my homie, you best check yo self.")

7. Always on the Run - Lenny Kravitz (Horns! Lenny! Slash! "My mama said that your life is a gift." When your mama is Roxie Roker, you'd best listen.)

8. Tennessee - Arrested Development ("I know you're supposed to be my steering wheel, not just my spare tire.")

9. Giving Him Something He Can Feel - En Vogue (Since I gave you the En Vogue version in an earlier post, here is the amazing Miss Aretha Franklin's version.)

Off to do something more productive than trolling YouTube.

'Scuze Me While I Kiss This Guy

Oh, this one is going to be embarrassing. It's got to be one of the most random collections of songs ever. I made this, judging by the inclusion of MMC songs, while working at The Disney Store, probably around late 1993.

Like all people in their early 20's, I thought I was the coolest thing ever, that I knew everything, and that one day I would rule the world. There is no other logical explanation for this tape. I will continue to save it, keeping me humble and reminding me of my youthful folly.

Side A:

1. Too Shy - Kajagoogoo (There will never be hair like this again...we can hope. "Tongue tied, I'm short of breath, don't even try." The lyrics are simply ridiculous.)

2. Talk Talk - Talk Talk (Still a great song.)

3. Wherever I May Roam - Metallica (Guess I needed some street cred after the first two songs...I don't think it'll get me through the next song though. Their album with the San Francisco Symphony is genius. "Roamer. Wanderer. Nomad. Vagabond. Call me what you will.")

4. When I Fall In Love - Celine Dion & Clive Davis (Before she got all "I am the greatest" chest beating crazy. Beautiful song, beautiful sentiment. "When I give my heart, it will be completely.")

5. Kids in America - Kim Wilde ("Look boy don't check on your watch, not another glance. I'm not leaving now honey, not a chance." Redeemed myself a bit here...even if there is no such thing as "East California"...)

6. Flava - MMC (This. Is. Amazing. I wonder how embarrassed Keri Russell and JC Chasez are by this. Probably not as much as I am for having owned this cd...)

7. Linger - The Cranberries ("If you, if you could get by trying not to lie. Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used.")

8. (She's) Sexy & 17 - Stray Cats (I've seen Brian Setzer Orchestra 3 or 4 times live, all at the Greek Theater. So. Good. I'm a sucker for a horn section. "They play rock & roll music like it hasn't been rocked in years.")

9. Shiny, Shiny - Haysi Fantayzee ("Good times come to me now." I could call Michelle, sing "shiny shiny" and she would reply "look at my shoes." This song is ridiculous '80s fun.)

10. Lay Your Hands On Me - Thompson Twins (I love the Thompson Twins, always have, always will. So many good memories tied to their songs. "I have chased so many dreams." Sitting under the stars, chatting with Olin about our private island that never came to be.)

11. Hanging on for Dear Life - MMC ("A video jam that's totally sweet" according to JC.)

Side B:

1. Just Got Lucky - JoBoxers ("Your technique it leaves me weak. My heart knows it's the beat I seek." Top 10 favorite one hit wonder. This song always makes me happy.)

2. Real Talk - MMC (A. Maze. Ing. The "slammin video jam" starts around 1:30. In my defense, I'm pretty sure between it being on sale and my cast member discount I probably paid under $2 for this music.)

3. Wanted - The Cranberries (Dolores O'Riordan's voice - pure, haunting, raw emotion. Natural follow up to MMC.)

4. Rest Assured - The Lemonheads (I adore Evan Dando. He's a hot mess, but so good to listen to. His voice is smooth and soft and welcoming. "It's not what you do to me, it's what you do without.")

5. 88 Lines About 44 Women - The Nails ("Pauline thought that love was simple: turn it on and turn it off.")

6. Step to the Rhythm - MMC (Try and find Ryan Gosling, I dare you.)

7. Higher Ground - UB40 ("The more I learn the less I know about before." Proof that stringing a bunch of philosophical sounding lines together does not make you deep.)

8. Walking on Sunshine - Katrina and the Waves (Cue dance montage!)

9. Church of the Poison Mind - Culture Club (Probably my favorite CC song.)

10. Dreams - The Cranberries

11. Enter Sandman - Metallica (So. Freaking. Good. "I tuck you in, warm within, keep you free from sin, til the Sandman he comes.")

12. Destination Unknown - Missing Persons ("I know I'll leave when it's my time to go. Til then I'll carry on with what I know." I saw them live with Flock of Seagulls sometime around 1996. They were entertaining, but not as entertaining as hearing FoS talk about their new album...)

Drive Me Crazy!

Class has been cancelled tonight and it's crappy outside so I'm watching college football and going through another mix tape. In keeping with the driving theme, here is the next one, most likely from 1991, end of Senior Year. And we have our first casualty of time. Almost just lost this one to the tape deck, but have managed to pull out a victory. Phew!

Side A:

1. Give it Away - RHCP (The lightbulb costumes more than make up for the not-so-great quality of the audio. "Re-a-lize I don't want to be a miser. Confide wisely you'll be the wiser. Young blood is the lovin upriser. How come everybody wanna keep it like the Kaiser?")

2. Working in a Coal Mine - Devo ("Five o'clock in the morning, I'm up before the sun. When my work day is over, I'm too tired for having fun.")

3. Wrong - School of Fish (I loved this album when it came out. Most only know it from Three Strange Days, but there were some other gems on it, like this one. "You say its all about control and nothing should control you. If no one ever gets too close, then you'll have nothing to live up to.")

4. No One Lives Forever - Oingo Boingo (Well, well, here's footage of a concert I attended. Boingo played Irvine Meadows every Halloween for years and Denyette and I went to many of those shows. Good memories of silly dancing and parking lot antics. Oh Danny Elfman how I miss your live shows and backflips. "Let's have a party, there's a full moon in the sky. It's the hour of the wolf and I don't wanna die.")

5. Let's Go To Bed - The Cure (No one lived through the late '80s/early '90s without The Cure. "Stay alive, but stay the same.")

6. Shout - Otis Day & The Knights (Great movie, great song. "I still remember, when you used to be 9 years old. Shoobie doo wah doo wah wah.")

7. The Boy With a Thorn in His Side - The Smiths ("And when you want to live? How'd you start? Where'd you go? Who'd you need to know?" This is off my favorite album by The Smiths. So many memories of high school tied up in this album. Special thanks to Steve Trachsel for introducing me to The Smiths summer of 1987 in Palm Springs.)

8. Ring of Fire - Social Distortion (This is the band I've seen live most often. Love them always. And Mike Ness is pretty much solely responsible for my attraction to men with full sleeves. Because everyone knows Ring of Fire, I give you my favorite Social D song. "Sick boy, sick girl looking nice, dressed up on a Saturday night...gonna leave this world behind, I'm Southern California bound.")

9. Take the Money and Run - Steve Miller Band (I'm not sure I should share this, because if you haven't figured it out on your own, you most likely don't deserve to know...oh fine, only do the clap after names of places [El Paso; Texas]. You're welcome.)

10. Trip Through Your Wires - U2 (Bono+harmonica=Greatness...although I've always been more an Edge girl myself. "Thunder, thunder on the mountain. There's a rain cloud in the desert sky.")

11. Magic Bus - The Who (Michelle and I so thought we were the coolest for being into classic rock in High School. This is one we loved singing and showed up on a number of mix tapes of both of ours. It's really the most fun Who song to sing loudly. "I don't want to cause no fuss. But can I buy your magic bus?" I still have this in heavy rotation, on my iPod now - makes the 14th Street bus ride a little more fun.)

12. Earthquake - This is a song by some band that must never have hit it big - the guy sounds like Fred from The B-52s. This is killing me not remembering who this is dammit.

13. Pretty Little Ditty - RHCP (They could do no wrong on this album imho.)

Side B:

1. Magic Johnson - RHCP (Mi amore, Magic Johnson. They rarely sing the lyrics live, instead giving the time to Flea to slappa da bass and Chad to pound the skins. "Lakers are the team that I watch on the telly, cause they got more moves than a bowl full of jelly. The Buck stops here, pops then cheers, a roar through the Forum that deafens my ears.")

2. 30,000 Lbs. of Bananas - Harry Chapin (My love for this man and his music is well documented. This is, arguably, the best driving song ever. "And he missed the thankful passing bus at 90 miles an hour...and he sideswiped 19 neat parked cars, clipped off 13 telephone poles, hit 2 houses, bruised 8 trees and Blue-Crossed 7 people. It was then he lost his head, not to mention an arm or two before he stopped." Funniest song about a death I must say.)

3. Jeremy - Pearl Jam (And now for something completely different..."Try to erase this from the blackboard.")

4. Miss Freelove '69 - Hoodoo Gurus ("You can't take me anywhere. I'll strip down to my underwear if you give me half a chance." Fun, frothy, Australian. What more could a girl ask for?)

5. Jack & Diane - John Cougar Mellancamp (Iconic. "Hold on to 16 as long as you can. Changes come around real soon make us women and men.")

6. Mellowship Slinky in B Major - RHCP (I've loved RHCP since Fight Like a Brave. Little songs like this are why. "I'm on the porch cuz I lost my house key. Pick up my book I read Bukowski. Can I get another kiss from you? Kiss me right here on my tattoo.")

7. Intro/Three Strange Days - School of Fish ("I think I lost myself when I lost my motivation." )

8. Tom Sawyer - Rush (Three of the most talented musicians together. Phenomenal live even if they can't play their own song on Rock Band...)

9. Strobe Light - B-52s ("Where's my telephone?")

10. Young Americans - David Bowie (I'm going to go out on a limb and guess I had no clue what this song was really about at the soft age of 17. "Ain't there one damn song that can make me break down and cry?")

11. Jet Airliner - Steve Miller Band (Proof that old men should not wear leather and/or berets. "Goodbye to all my friends at home. Goodbye to people I trusted. I got to go out and make my way. I might get rich you know, I might get busted.")

Traffic Tape Dos

It is cold, wintery, and wet outside and after a couple hectic days I'm feeling run-down so I've decided to get warm and sentimental and go through a couple more tapes. This is the logical follow-up to Tunes for Traffic and includes some of the same songs (less work!). Here, for your pleasure is another from circa 1997.

Side A:

1. Pato & Roger Come Again - Pato Banton & Rankin Roger (Told you it would appear... "Some quick to take and slow to give. Them kind of people we don't walk with. Love is to give and life is to live, so think positive, don't think negative.")

2. Let's Get It On - Marvin Gaye (I'll take this time to plug one of my favorite restaurants in DC - Marvin on 14th North of U Street NW.)

3. How Your Love Makes Me Feel - Diamond Rio (Learn something while listening to a great song. My friends Peter, Corey and I used to do a crazy, non-ASL version of the chorus. "It's like just before dark, jump in the car, buy an ice cream and see how far we can drive before it melts kind of easy. There's a cow in the road and you swerve to the left. Fate skips a beat and it scares you to death and you laugh until you cry. That's how your love makes me feel inside.")

4. I Wanna Learn a Love Song - Harry Chapin ("And I could hear both of our heartbeats, but there was no place to hide." There is nothing I associate my father with more than Harry Chapin. Most people, if they know of him at all, know Harry for Cat's in the Cradle. He was so much more than just that song and I've spent many hours exposing people to this great storyteller. Yet another thing I have to thank my father for - filling my childhood memories with this man's music.)

5. Drowning Man - U2 (Probably my favorite U2 song. I live for the day they actually play this live. "You run and not grow weary. Take my hand...")

6. You & Me & The Bottle Makes 3 - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy (Obviously needed something uplifting and frothy after Drowning Man!)

7. Running on Faith - Eric Clapton (Hearing this again makes me want to put in some Derek and the Dominoes.)

8. Silver Springs - Fleetwood Mac (I admit to picking this one because someone yelled "Freebird." "I'll begin not to love you. Turn around, see me running. I'll say I loved you years ago. Tell myself you never loved me, no." This song will always be mine and Jake's unfortunately.)

9. All For You - Sister Hazel (Yes, I danced and sang again.)

10. Criminal - Fiona Apple (She's so amazingly, wonderfully crazy in this performance. "Oh, help me but don't tell me to deny it. I got to cleanse myself of all these lies, 'til I'm good enough for him.")

11. Lover Lay Down - Dave Matthews Band

12. Sexuality - k.d. lang

13. Confetti - Lemonheads ("He kinda shoulda sorta woulda loved her if he could've. He'd rather be alone than pretend." Amen brother.)

Side B:

1. Love Shack - B-52s (Saw them live 2 years ago with, among others, Cyndi Lauper. All sounded great. "Knock a little louder baby!")

2. Take a Chance on Me - ABBA (You're welcome.)

3. Understanding - BoDeans (Hello somewhat random song choice. Couldn't find a clip of this song, but enjoy my favorite song of theirs. I love the BoDeans, great band often overlooked.)

4. Linger - The Cranberries (Her voice stands up all these years later. Beautiful, haunting. "But you always really knew, I just want to be with you.")

5. I've Got My Love to Keep Me Warm - Les Brown (Love this version of a favorite standard. Ella's as well. "Off with my overcoat. Off with my glove. I need no overcoat I'm burning with love." Guess "no glove, no love" wasn't a popular saying back in Irving Berlin's days...)

6. When I Come To You - Jonny Lang

7. World is New - Save Ferris (Monique and a young Conan for you. Jake worked at the Anaheim Convention Center with a couple of the Save Ferris guys. "When I am down and I am blue, all I have to do is close my eyes and think of you...and the world is new.")

8. You're the One That I Want - John Travolta & Olivia Newton-John (Don't hate me - it was the year of the 25th anniversary, so in honor of that here is a video of them performing live in 1997.)

9. Love You To - The Beatles ("A lifetime is so short, a new one can't be bought. But what you've got means such a lot to me." I was so deep in my youth.)

10. Giving Him Something He Can Feel - En Vogue ("Living in a world of ghetto life, everyone is so uptight." Funky Divas indeed.)

11. Rockin' Stroll - Lemonheads (Best song about being pushed in a stroller..."All I've been shown is everything I wanna see.")

12. Strobe Light - B-52s ("Then I'm gonna kiss your pineapple.")

13. Best of What's Around - Dave Matthews Band

14. Back For a Taste of Your Love - Jonny Lang (Enjoy a different song by Mr. Lang since the ones I love most weren't his commercial successes.)

15. Here, There & Everywhere - The Beatles

Tunes for Traffic

This tape comes courtesy of my time spent driving an hour to go 8 miles for work...gotta love LA traffic...circa 1997. I can say with no doubt that I still love each song on this tape. Glad to see that my taste stands up after 12 years...at least with this tape, because I KNOW there is something out there I mixed with N*SYNC on it.

On a side note, I seem to be gravitating towards live versions with the YouTube links on this one. I must be in a concert-going mood. Also, this has put me in a very sentimental mood, for which I will not apologize.

Side A:

1. All For You - Sister Hazel (Still makes me dance and sing at the top of my lungs. Good stuff. And yes, I do pronounce the words like he does when I sing along.)

2. Running on Faith - Eric Clapton (Beautiful in its simplicity. "Lately I been talking in my sleep. Can't imagine what I'd have to say, 'cept my world would be right, if love comes back my way.")

3. Sexuality - k.d. lang ("How bad could it be, if you amuse yourself with me?" Her voice is like butter.)

4. Let's Get It On - Marvin Gaye (My favorite memory of this song is dancing with a boy named Brian in a bar on State Street in Santa Barbara. We'd just met that night and for some reason, the slow, sweet dance caused the world to melt away, making it feel as though we were the only people in the room. We did not, in fact, ever get it on, but did date a couple times after we both returned to OC.)

5. Can't Get You Off My Mind - Lenny Kravitz ("Old enough to see behind me, young enough to feel my soul." I always want that to be true. If you know me well at all, you know how dirty hot I think Lenny is and how very much I've always loved his music.)

6. Another Drinking Song - Mighty Mighty Bosstones ("Just a devotion to a potion, please no applause and a dedication to a medication, a crutch, a cure, a cause." This song doesn't demonstrate what I most love about the Bosstones, which is that they have a guy whose sole purpose is to dance wildly on stage.)

7. April 26, 1992 - Sublime (As most Californians do, I remember exactly where I was when I first saw footage of these riots. I was in the student lounge at my private college in the posh hills of Santa Barbara, safe and far away from where this happened. My brother was at UCLA at the time, closer, but thankfully safe as well. Shame that 17 years later there is still the same levels of racial tension and poverty in South Central. That said, 40 oz. to Freedom is still one of my favorite albums to listen to the entire way through.)

8. GWARN! - Pato Banton (Oh this album brings back memories of my Senior year in High School, cruising Balboa with Michelle, top down on her Jeep. Good lord, we were young, foolish and free. "Then its off to the dance to jump and prance and wiggle and jiggle and wiggle and jiggle and wiggle and jiggle and wiggle and jiggle and dance." I'm going to go out on a limb and predict "Pato and Roger Come Again" is on a number of my other mix tapes.)

9. Best of What's Around - Dave Matthews Band ("Turns out not where but who you're with that really matters." I'm not one to say "That album changed my life." and usually scoff when others do, but this one did. Any time I hear a song from this album, I'm transported to a time when I was full of hope and love and happiness.)

10. Lover Lay Down - Dave Matthews Band (Chose this link for the inclusion of Tim Reynolds. So good. "So much we have dreamed. We were so much younger, hard to explain that we have grown stronger. A million reasons life to deny, let's toss them away.")

11. You and Me and the Bottle Makes Three - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy (I love the movie Swingers for many reasons. The one reason I hated it was for the light shone on places like The Dresden Room, The Derby, etc. - previously unknown places to go for great music and fun times without ridiculous lines of bandwagoners.)

Side B:

1. The Mountains Win Again - Blues Traveler ("This time in my life, I was hurt enough to care. I guess from now on, I'll be careful what I share...Someday I will find, love again will blow my mind." )

2. Three Little Birds - Bob Marley (A gem - Tracy Chapman "singing sweet songs, a melody pure and true.")

3. Possession - Sarah McLachlan ("Voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time." Prettiest song about stalking ever.)

4. When I Come to You - Jonny Lang (Couldn't find a vid of this, my favorite Jonny Lang song, but here's one of him playing with one of the great blues bands of all time, Double Trouble. Makes me miss Stevie just a smidge less...)

5. Strip - Adam Ant ("I am not a man who believes in lies, like an octopus with big x-ray eyes." What? I forgot how deliciously wonderful this video is.)

6. Something in the Way She Moves - James Taylor (Still so good after so many years. "Every now and then the things I lean on lose their meaning and I find myself careening into places where I should not let me go.")

7. Closer - Nine Inch Nails (No respectable mix tape from this time would appear without this song. "You can have my isolation. You can have the hate that it brings.")

8. Say You Love Me - Fleetwood Mac ("You woo me until the sun comes up and you say that you love me." I chose this link, of course, for Lindsey's amazing beard.)

9. Here, There, & Everywhere - The Beatles ("To lead a better life, I need my love to be here." No one writes a love song like these guys. Le sigh.)

10. Helplessly Hoping - CSN&Y (Some of my favorite memories with my father are seeing CS&N at the Santa Barbara Bowl. What both of us wouldn't have given to see Young with them. "Love isn't lying, it's loose in a lady who lingers, saying she is lost and choking, on hello.")

11. Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band ("Sweet like candy to my soul, sweet you rock and sweet you roll." I chose this clip for this: "I will be your Dixie Chicken if you be my Tennessee Lamb. We will walk together down in Dixie Land."*)

*Having listened to this tape the entire way through, going through the memories it provoked, I realize it must have been made right around the time I got engaged, and the man who was supposed to be "best" at the wedding declared his undying love for me, privately, at our engagement party. Heady times those were. He introduced me to the joys of Little Feat.

Country Mix

The first of the 42 I listened to. Made for me by either Peter (who is now a country music recording artist) or Corey while we all worked at The Disney Store, circa 1994-96. Gosh those were good times. We'd go country dancing a couple times a month - I'm a mean two and ten stepper for the record.

On to the music. And yes, I had to look up most of these for the artist's name, but I was able to sing all the words to almost all the songs after having not heard most of them for over a decade. And people think I'm joking when I talk about my passion for music and how I really do have a soundtrack to my life. Pft.

Side A:

1. I Don't Think I Will - James Bonamy (The way he says "right there" in the first verse always cracks me up.)

2. Your Love Amazes Me - John Berry

3. Where Angels Live - Rhett Akins (One I didn't like then and don't like now.)

4. I Do - Paul Brandt (This has been one of my favorite songs since it came out - I will never not love this song nor stop looking forward to the day when it is sung to me sincerely by the man I love.)

5. I Am That Man - Brooks and Dunn

6. Who Am I? - Unfortunately, I'm unable to answer that question since I have no idea who sings this song...

7. What's Not to Love? - Mark Wills (Good Lord P or C sure had sappy taste in country music...)

8. Living In A Moment - Ty Herndon (And when they carve my stone all they need to write on it...cue drums)

9. Carried Away - George Strait (One of the greats. I don't care who you are, you are dead inside if you don't sing along with this song. Sorry for the crappy video, but hey! Japanimation!)

10. My Destiny - Alas. Another one for which I cannot figure out the artist.

11. What They're Talking About - Rhett Akins (Horrible video quality, and while ridiculous, a fun song.)

12. Love Of A Lifetime - Yet another for which I was unable to find the artist. Enjoy Keith Urban's song of the almost same name instead!

Side B:

1. One And Only Love - Paul Brandt (Another favorite. Actually from one of the few country cds I own. Shame I couldn't find a video of it anywhere-boo.)

2. Keeper of the Stars - Tracy Byrd (Doves! Doves in the video! I bet that wasn't an accident either.)

3. If Tomorrow Never Comes - Garth Brooks (My fondness for Garth is well documented. For those who are mocking me for that, I give you this cover as punishment.)

4. Between Now & Forever - Bryan White (The country answer to NKOTB - sweet, adorable and asexual. See if you can figure out why I picked that clip. Go on. I dare you. I'll give you a hint, it is not the ass grab.)

5. What Love Is - If only I knew the artist to get clarification.

6. She's Every Woman - Garth Brooks (If I had to choose my one great love [at least to this point in my life] I would pick the man who used to sing lines from this song {always different} to me every time we would see each other because, as he said, it summed me up perfectly. I will forever love this song and probably him.)

7. Long As I Live - John Michael Montgomery (It's a bit ridiculous that people have this much time on their hands...)

8. My Love - Little Texas (Well, now I'm just getting silly. Let's blame the lack of sleep! Also, comment above applies even more here, although I must admit I can't stop giggling.)

9. On the Inside - Paul Brandt (Huh. We all really liked this guy, didn't we? It wasn't your dress and it wasn't my drink, you lit up the room with your smile.)

10. Her Heart Is Only Human - Ty Herndon (YouTubers must have used up all the cheese on 7 and 8.)

11. The Dance - Garth Brooks (I hope this kid didn't get beat up after the talent show and MY GOD THE CLAPPING.)

12. Look At You Girl - Chris LeDoux (This reminds me of something and I can't put my finger on it. Maybe an SNL skit? Gah. Oddly enough he and his band showed up at our favorite Irish bar one night and turned out to be really nice people.)

13. I Will Be Here - Steven Curtis Chapman (Probably the most used first dance song ever. Well, behind that one from Titanic.)

Inspiration in Insomnia

So, I think I'm going to start sporadically posting here again even though I sincerely doubt anyone still checks this since it's been so long. It might just be me posting about the most awesome thing ever (aka the mix tapes I just found) or it might be more. Who knows. It all depends on what I feel like posting and whether I have time to do it. Given my horrific sleeping as of late, I may be here often.